My Island.

Tuesday, November 29, 2005

150th post...

Second try to being open...here we go.

To Jane: We're in different classes. When we talked about some things, and I try to describe what happened in 6-13 or you try to describe what happened in 6-12, we don't understand each other. Which leads to a degenerating friendship. Also, sometimes you keep to yourself, and when I ask, you say nothing's wrong. And then later (or on your blog), you say that nobody cared when you were like that. What am I supposed to do? I hate consoling people and I hate people consoling me. Or being sorry for me. It makes me feel worse. Does it make you feel worse or better?

To my mom: I hate you when you do things that irritate me. You also continue doing it. Why do you wonder why I'm like this: antisocial, talking back at you, ignoring you, cursing you under my breath? Because you do those things and you are oblivious to my feelings. And when you know I feel angry and frustrated, you mock me, thus further irritating me. You peer over my shoulder at the computer when I don't want you to. Why do you do those things? I'm sure the reason is not because you're my MOM is it?

There we go. Done and over with.

11/29/2005 08:34:00 PM

149th post...

Well, I've decided to be more open on my blog. Don't ask me what I mean about open, you figure it out for yourself. Now...my first start being open...

I.hate.my.stupid.fatass.pig.of.a.cousin.

He achieved a low score of 157 for his PSLE, and he actually received two rewards from his mom and aunt! Their reason: He did good enough to pass, right? And anyway, he's got this little congenital defect and I'm really afraid he's gonna die soon so I better give him everything he wants now.

What fuck is that? Well, excuse me, I got a score of 264, more than 100 points above that stupid pig, and what the hell do I get? NIL. NADA. ZILCH. God. If he ever enters the real world, I swear he will get butchered to bits. Expecting people to give way? NO CHANCE!

And my aunt has the gall to say that me and my sibs are different from him. What comparison is she making? SIZE? Cos if it is, then there is definitely a HUGE difference! INTELLIGENCE? Then it's us who should be receiving whatever he gets! His family are rich, richer than mine, so what is the bloody point of giving stuff to him?!

Sheesh. If I ever had to throw only one load of rubbish away, that would be him.

11/29/2005 03:47:00 PM

Sunday, November 27, 2005

148th post...

Well, you could say I change my mind too fast. I did turn out to enjoy the trip after all, but with minor disagreements with who else but my dear, sweet mother. She is extremely supportive of me, do you know that?

We went to someunknownperson's house, and it turns out I've been there before. It wasn't so bad - "You always talk about MY faults, you don't talk about YOUR faults!" - and overall I guess I lightened up a little. A little.

Then we went to the Expo. Since a lot of people wanted to go to Sitex, we had to park just outside the NEWater plant. Then we walked all the way to Expo, at Foyer 1.

Foyer 1 had a row of glass panels, and inserted in between them were the automatic doors. My brother, wanting to race me to the door, instantly ran for one of the doors. He jumped up and down on the carpet ecstatically, waiting for the doors to open. I looked up and saw that the area where he was jumping on had no sensor - in fact, it was just to the right of him.

At Sitex, my sis found what she was looking for - the MP3 player she wanted, albeit of a lesser memory size. Me and my second sis went around looking at the exhibition area, particularly at the areas where gaming were taking place, like at the Creative Extreme Fidelity area. The sounds were loud and realistic, occasionally causing me to jump.

After getting the MP3 player, we headed to Parkway Parade to eat dinner. For once in my life, I finally managed to eat wanton noodles - at that area they were halal - and they tasted good. We left for home after that. That's why I'm here.

11/27/2005 09:20:00 PM

147th post...

it's a boring Sunday and as usual, I'm on the comp. Later my parents are going to someunknownperson's house and later to Sitex at Expo. My eldest sis wants to look at some MP3 players. inwhichcasewherethehellismyprezziedearaunt?

I wanna stay at home, play comp, talk with friends, go outside, study for Muis PSLE, so on and so forth. Not stuck in someunknownperson's house doing nothing and at Sitex full of computer professionals and such.

Yesterday I stayed up till 1 to use the comp, hoping my parents were asleep. Too bad, I heard the TV static from their room so I decided to lie low for a while, waiting for them to switch off the TV. I ended up falling asleep and waking up later at 4. Well, my parents had already switched off the TV anyway...so...

I went outside and read fanfics till 5, that's when I discovered Mish's friend's fanfic titled Haros On MSN. Mish told her friend all about her Haro antics (Jr Wraith Haro, Wraith Haro, Evil Eye Haro 70freexp) and her friend wrote a fanfic about it. Heh.

IwannastayathomeandplaySims2allday...

feeeeh. -____________-

11/27/2005 12:28:00 PM

Thursday, November 24, 2005

146th post...

today is PSLE Results day. and I am so baffled, but extremely happy.

I GOT A SCORE OF 264!

something I've always dreamt about. and the most baffling thing is that I got A*s for both Maths and Science (and English). I was absolutely certain that I lost more than 10 marks on both, but to get an A*, I'd have to lose at the most 9 1/2 marks. the markers must be absolutely lenient. or they're blind. but heck!!

once I get on MS today, I'm gonna send out Maple Leaves concerning Rosyth's and Singapore's top PSLE scorer, Adil Hakeem aka DDFB with a score of 282! Bringing fame and glory to Rosyth School! Yeah, Rosyth rocks! Especially P6GE. But I'm releasing the Leaves on Bootes, only on Aquila if I can get in, hopefully.

the thing I'm gloating about is that my other cousins who are P6 got scores of under 200, with only one exception. the most I'm gloating about is my oh-so-irritating cousin, who got only *ahem*. and he gets a bloody MP3 Player from my aunt! well! what nerve!

I think I'm gonna buy myself the Sims 2 with my Popular Gift Vouchers from Rosyth. which means I just pay $35 for it. Whee!

11/24/2005 02:28:00 PM

Thursday, November 17, 2005

Happy birthday to me,
Happy birthday to me,
Happy birthday to me...
Happy birthday to me.

145th post...

Isn't that just so nice? It's officially the last day of school, and it's also my 12th birthday.

I am now at school with my friends nearby listening to their MP3 players and being so kaypoh about my stupid post. Don't they understand the meaning of secrecy and the need for it? I have already ordered everyone out of a 1 meter radius yet Jane still does not get the meaning of it! How bothersome can they get?!

And not one person except for Chew Lin and Denise greeted me a "Happy Birthday". And what probably is gonna piss me off is that they'll say so when they know I'm irritated that no one greeted me a Happy Birthday. so from this post, everyone...

SHUT THE HELL UP AND DON'T SAY HAPPY BIRTHDAY! UNDERSTAND?!

and CL was saying yesterday that being 12 was good. Well, today it isn't. So far, five people have considerably pissed me off. Nevermind. I'm trying not to care.

Later we're gonna watch GoF. and I'm gonna watch it in silence if I have to. Some people bailed out of it, so I think them as irresponsible.

Status of class: Darren has gone beserk, acting like Barney. Some are desperately trying to contain their temper, like me. Some are playing Monkey, which is kinda harmful to the health cos somebody once lobbed it at my poor little noggin. sigh...why do I always seem so pissed?

and I seem to be blabbering on as usual, cos I don't feel like entering the real world and facing reality. typing on a blog makes me feel as if I'm talking to myself and not to all readers.

like today. it was raining real heavy and I was using an umbrella to shelter myself on the way to the MRT station. I took the usual path, and since it wasn't sheltered, there was no one there. not behind me, not in front of me. I felt a little spooked out, so I talked to myself.

isn't this so sad? I still have so much to say to everyone, but there's not enough time to do so. ah well.

11/17/2005 10:17:00 AM

Monday, November 14, 2005

12squaredth post...eheheh...

I just posted the poem in the previous post onto the class forum. got some mixed reviews about it...but I don't mind really, so long as they get it.

tomorrow I am finally meeting up with my friends after that long 4-day weekend. the last few days we have together.

ahhh crap. I already covered this topic. scrap it.

um...so...

I'LL DAMN BLOODY MISS YOU GUYS! THE ULTRA-BEST CLASSMATES ANYBODY (or maybe only me) COULD EVER HAVE!

11/14/2005 10:02:00 PM

143rd post.

Yes, it is really 2:42 am now. Since I'm not going to school today, I might as well spend the time awake.

I went to my cousin's house yesterday for their Hari Raya open house. Nothing much to say really, so I won't go further into it. Instead, I'll talk about the last few days of proper school we have together.

Not including PSLE results and this Friday, we only have 3 more proper schooldays to do everything we want with our friends at school. After that, we can only meet up either by MSN or by planned outings.

I still have so many things to say to people, to know them better, to say goodbye properly. To tell them how I feel, to know how they feel, to do stuff, ya know?

it's a bright sunny day
don't you want to go out and play?
I said no, I wanted to stay
there was the telly to watch today

in the house I was confined
where I thought I could unwind
but the real truth was declined
to mush turned my mind

infecting me with unsound information
my mind rattled with frustration
they caused Mother Earth some mischaracterization
depicted as some huge muddled-up population

sure, it's true, I know
but the defendants are there out the window
children of innocence playing below
the power to change the world; to them we bestow

it's a bright sunny day
don't you want to go out and play?
I said yes, I wouldn't want to stay
there was a world out there to change today

11/14/2005 02:40:00 AM

Thursday, November 10, 2005

142nd post...

I am now at school and using the lousy Mac here to blog. Took me and Denise ages to get the stupid Active Scripting thingy done.

Situation in class: EXTREMELY BORING. Just two hours ago or so we had some kind of blahblah assembly that lasted 1hr 15min. Some prize presentation. My legs were screaming in pain at the end of it.

Now...

Majority of the class is clumped in groups in front of the comp. Some read books, others play chess. And I'm blogging and Denise will kill me if I posted whatever I wanted to say just now.

the forum admins had a surprise yesterday. Mr Grosse had just joined the Rosyth GE forum as a member and we're all scared stiff of him unveiling our controversial topics like George Bush, Al-Qaeda and the misconception of Jihad. so the High Admin Dodohead asked me to password-protect the Two Cents' Worth board. and the password is amusing, I might add.

And Hiei the Black Kitty says "Hn" to the readers of this blog.

I say we all kill him.

11/10/2005 08:55:00 AM

Sunday, November 06, 2005

141st post...

Well, it's a nice bright dazzling Sunday and I'm spending it stuck at home serving my cousins and Dad's friends with continuous jugfuls of Sarsi. Hm. Not on my list of spending a Sunday, that's for sure.

Later more of my cousins are going to come, but at least they're more enjoyable than this lot. The two teens who came are some of the boring cousins I have, partly because we're on different wavelengths and don't understand each other very well.

Too bad I'm not getting paid for this. I got it in advance.

Why oh why oh why...it's less than two weeks to the end of school where the P6ers will be split up in hundreds of pieces and the P6GE isn't really getting together and saying our last sentimental goodbyes. I feel outta place here...I want to socialise with the other pupils but I'm not really the sociable type; whoever I make friends with and trust really well I stick with to the end. And that's not many people.

Seeya. For the I-don't-know-how-many-eth time.

11/06/2005 04:05:00 PM

Saturday, November 05, 2005

140th post...

heh. I have been re-reading and re-re-reading and re-re-re-reading Howl's Moving Castle and Castle in the Air just to spot clues on Howl's and Sophie's relationship. Always thought they were an intriguing couple.

Meanwhile, I've been playing Gameboy cartridges on my comp on a GBA emulator. I'm currently playing Sims: Bustin' Out, Spyro Season of Flame and Kingdom Hearts: Chain of Memories.

There is some spring-cleaning flurry around my house cos my dad decided to open house this Sunday or tomorrow. So I'm busy trying to clear up the messy shelf with my sis while taking breaks to attack my comp.

Tomorrow I think I'll be holed up in my room most of the time with Diana Wynne Jones' books in hand. There's bound to be a lot of my dad's friends all unknown and awkward to me. And anyway, my dad's gonna be telling me to either let his friends' children use the comp or go help serve them.

Seeya.

11/05/2005 11:40:00 PM

Friday, November 04, 2005

139th post...

I was woken up by Mom asking me if I wanted to go to school. Turns out, it's 6.40 and I'm waaay late. So I just mumbled some random junk and fell back asleep. So I got to skip school!...which I totally regret.

I woke up later at 10.45 in a daze. I was supposed to meet up with the other 7 at J8 to watch Sky High. At 1.15, Jane called me up to say that they were already heading to J8. I left home at 1.30 and arrived there only at 2.10, 20 minutes before the show started. Chev and Nic didn't come, but TG dragged Russell Lim along. So only one seat was wasted.

The movie was pretty nice, and I kept eating all the popcorn. After the movie, Denise, Jane and Sugi were like "Warren Peace is so cute!" or "His power is so cool!". Seriously, I don't get much of this rabid-fangirl habit of girls. Even though I am one myself.

On Nov 17 we're gonna go watch Harry Potter. The same 8 of us, if we can come.

11/04/2005 06:58:00 PM

Thursday, November 03, 2005

138th post...

Selamat Hari Raya to all!

This one's gonna be a superlong post because a lot has happened recently but I didn't update the blog. I'll start off with the Adventure Camp.

Part of it sucked because I didn't get to zipline since it rained earlier in the morning, disrupting all activities then. But I kinda enjoyed the rest of the activities, especially High Ropes. I was the first one to do the Bridge of Burma (was it called that?) and boy, was it fun. I thought the Cargo Net was going to be hard, but it turned out okay. I was praying like mad all the way.

And if I did get to zipline, I know exactly what to shout. "Alvan loves Denise!"

And then the Jumble Sale. It actually started out fine, and I was happy and all. Me and Den became the shouting advertisements, screaming out "Come to 6-13's Pinata Challenge!" and stuff like that. Eventually, my voice became hoarse and since I was fasting, I became tired very easily. And I got all gloomy because of SOME PEOPLE.

But that day was also the last day of Ramadan, so I was still glad. Rejoicing cos tomorrow (or today, that is) I can finally eat all I want and get Raya money! Plus I can also meet my Japanese cousin Sayuri who came to Singapore just this week. She's currently staying at my grandma's house, which I will be going to later in the afternoon.

Tomorrow the eight of us (Denise, Jane, me, Sugi, Chevy, Nicholas, Tey Guan and Alvan) will be going to J8 to watch Sky High. Luckily I can eat then so I'll tackle all the popcorn! Muahaha!

11/03/2005 11:58:00 AM