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Tuesday, October 31, 2006

309th post...

Stupid suncare talk.

The guy was boring me with his monotonous droning voice, and the uninteresting slides he showed us. I had checked Powerpoint for the number of slides; there were fifty of them. Crap.

When I'm bored, I get agitated and frustrated very easily. Add that to the fact that I was feeling extremely sleepy and unable to sleep openly. You get a very agitated, very frustrated and very angry Munirah. I scratched the carpet and dug my fingernails into my arm, and hit my forehead repeatedly with my knee. I figure the pain is better than being bored. Right there and then I regretted choosing Multiple Intelligence, because clearly I needed STAMP.

Multiple Intelligence wasn't so bad. I found out that my main learning style was Social, which means that I work better with people. That surprised me because I thought I was more of a visual or aural person. Oh well. Social's good too, I love being with friends. =3 There's a tie for my secondary style though.

According to the speaker, most world leaders have Solitary being one of their two learning styles. 'Cos they need to be clear in their thinking or whatever, I forgot.

Social: 17
Verbal: 13
Aural: 13
Solitary: 12
Visual: 12
Physical: 10
Logical: 8

When the speaker was demonstrating the aural style by playing two songs for us to listen, I closed my eyes and tried to imagine the picture I got from the lyrics of the first song (Solitaire by Clay Aiken). I ended up falling asleep until the speaker stopped the song and started the next one, at which I promptly fell asleep again until he stopped that song and started speaking.

I met Sze Min and Grace in the corridor outside when we were dismissed. We went to the gym to wait for Nancy because Grace needed to tell her that she forgot to meet Mrs Loh for something about the PT. A lot of people forgot to give their feedback things, and I thought I was the only one.

Our class audition for Drama Night was at 3.25. I love my green coat! XP So cute and warm! Squee! <3333>< Our audition went OK, I suppose...but perhaps it was a little too short. And the ball I was supposed to be catching went bouncing almost off the "stage"!

Back in class, we decided to come up with cheers for Net Carn tomorrow. I, supposedly, am the Cheer Captain and I'm not too decidedly pleased with that. Seeing as I am to lead the whole class in joyous harmony and uh, dance steps. TT_TT I'll have to send out an email later.

After a short game of netball which I did not enjoy, I went to Thomson Plaza with Pearlyn and Celeste. Celeste's main learning style is Logical, and her secondary one is Solitary. She'll become a good leader in the future perhaps. ^^ LOL! We ate at Burger King, me eating my favourite Turkey Bacon Student Meal and Pearlyn and Celeste ate Chicken Cheesesticks and Sundae Pies.

Ah, and I've been wanting to reply to Nancy's post on her LJ about those announcements. Too bad she disabled anonymous comments and I gave up signing up for LJ after too many hassles. =.= Damn LJ.

Anyway, I do NOT have to arm wrestle you and I will NOT. Also, I am not potential dance talent and if there was ever a Singaporean version of So You Think You Can Dance (actually the Singaporean parody is called The Dance Floor), I will NEVER join it. Hah, so there!

Don't call me Chris either after that Poetry Slam guy with the weird Na Na Na Esplanade poem.

Leaving that aside, I can't wait for Net Carn! Although not too keen on the Cheering part, I want to wear my class tee! Whoo! >< But mine's a size smaller than Celeste's and Pearlyn's, wonder why. (No, it's not because you're growing faster than me, Celeste)

10/31/2006 06:53:00 PM

Monday, October 30, 2006

308th post...

The Wedding

Damn. I was supposed to go to Lisa's house beforehand. So I boarded the train to Clementi, and then took bus 154. I knew the directions from StreetDirectory.com told me to alight at the fifth stop. So I counted the stops.

Funnily enough the bus was going on a route I didn't recognise on the map. Nor was the number of stops five. So I quickly got off at the next bus stop and took a look at my surroundings. Cycle & Carriage building, "Start of Expressway" sign, Ayer Rajah Road...shit.

I crossed the overhead bridge to the bus stop on the other side and found out that I had boarded the 154 in the WRONG direction. =.=;;; I rectified my mistake by boarding the bus now in the RIGHT direction.

Arrived at the right bus stop around 1.50pm or so. Lisa's house was on the other side of this wide longkang, accessible by a bridge. So I walked across the bridge (scary sia) and on the other side I was immediately greeted by a glaring red sign proclaiming the words BEWARE OF SNAKES.

The gate was locked, so I called Lisa to come down and fetch me. All the while I was trying to make noise and moving constantly just in case a snake came. Well, while waiting on the bridge a snake didn't come - a monitor lizard did.

It wasn't as big as its counterparts in the Zoo, nonetheless big enough to pose a threat to me. I quickly hissed "Go away! I'm not here, go away, away, away!" like Sophie to the scarecrow. Luckily it decided against crossing the bridge and went to scare some nearby birds. By now I was near-shrieking for help.

The wedding was pretty much a fiasco. The bride, family members and the groom were laughing too much to concentrate properly, and I was freezing cold cos the skirt I was wearing was pretty short. (Yes I wore a skirt. MUAHAHA!)

I didn't get to make a costume, so I decided I might as well fake it and go as Muni's Really-Identical Twin. Grace and Sze Min went as cats - so cute! XD Loved the masks! The food was pretty good too. Sze Min brought those chicken seaweed things that are delicious, and as expected they finished first. (I found a spare piece under the tissue!)

We played some games like Dai Di (where Shin's half-naked body was the Dai <---Dunno how to play) while others drowned their sorrows at "Florence's Bar". Shiing was there too, which of her sorrows is she drowning? XD We were playing Truth or Dare too, but I got a bad stomachache halfway through and had to go to the toilet. But I saw Shiing and Mandi's dare in which Shiing had to hold a piece of food in her mouth while Mandi ate it. ><>< style="font-weight: bold;">Today

Today I came late. I forgot assembly was on Mondays, so to avoid getting booked I evaded teachers and prefects and walked around aimlessly for about 20 minutes. I waited on the 2nd floor to listen to some of the announcements too.

A lot of talks today, so I won't list them down. More interesting things happen later. After the last talk, we were dismissed at 11. I wanted to finish up my digital portfolio but the comp lab was as usual, full. So me, Nancy, Sze Min and Gracey saved our stuff on Gracey's thumb drive and did our portfolios in the library.

We were booked though, for causing excessive noise. It wasn't even our fault! It was the group of 113ers beside us, those asses! See lah! At least it's not under ATT, and I hope it's not Teacher's Booking cos it's straight DC!

I finished my portfolio at 2. I loved my 3 personal achievements:

1. 8-keyed a whole song, however I didn't reach finish move and it was the slowest song (72 BPM)

2. Improved my perf chain by 1, making it x7 including a finish move.

3. Finally an academic achievement, me and three others participated in Learn@SDC and won the Thinking Discoverer Award.

Nancy took over my comp after that. She was looking up oxymorons (I had no idea what the hell those were and had to ask her: Uncute Munirah. Oh, great example.) and making a nonsensical sentence out of them so that she could put them up on her portfolio. She took ages to finish, luckily cut short with the help of Gracey.

You know, she sounds really un-Nancylike when she suddenly shouts out "Cute!".

Me and Sze Min chatted while waiting for Nancy to finish. I don't think I ever had a proper conversation with her before, but this one was very meaningful indeed. I kinda guessed from the earlier posts and what you said before though. =) She also taught me a little Chinese hand game, which I found pretty amusing, but a bit hard to catch at the end. ><

I am the type of person who comes up with "What If" scenarios to any possible problem. I make up scenarios based on what I think will happen, and how I should react to it. In this case, I haven't ever planned out what I would do...but, I suppose it would come to me soon enough.

Went back to class then. Initially, a netball practice was being held but I guess no one showed up or something. Sze Min left after that (explanation on her blog, I have no idea how to phrase it. Sorry for mixing things up, Rayne!). I wanted to ask why, but I felt I was being too nosey and so I shut up.

Nancy, Sarah, Flo and Grace discussed the costume plans for tomorrow. Later they decided to play netball, so I followed. Two Sec 3s came up to us and asked if we could play with them. I didn't know what to do. In the end I was dragged into the game anyway, playing as Wing Defence. Sarah was Goal Attack, Grace Wing Attack, Flo being Centre and Nancy as Goal Defence. I was so tempted to run away while going to the toilet, but...I'd feel really bad abandoning them.

In the end we lost 2-1. But I enjoyed myself pretty much. I went home after taking a drink and returning Nana's ball to the locker at the foot of the staircase. The 132 I went home on suddenly emitted a loud bang on the way home, so we were all held up for several minutes while the driver checked it out.

I was quite panicky as all sorts of "What If" scenarios ran in my head - a dented car, a bloody mangled person, a broken bus bumper...I couldn't wait to get off and see the damage. I got off at my usual stop and was disappointed to see that the bus didn't sustain any damage at all, except for a scratch.

Tomorrow we're having our enrichment activities! Mine's Multiple Intelligence and Learning Styles. Whoo! Tomorrow's our Drama Auditions too!

10/30/2006 07:42:00 PM

Saturday, October 28, 2006

307th post...

Shall blog about yesterday and today.

Yesterday

Yesterday at school we were preparing for Drama Night. I was pretty mad that day because my parents overslept and woke me up late, so I ended up being quite late for school and getting my fourth bloody booking for being late. IN THE LAST TWO WEEKS OF SCHOOL TOO! I hope they decide to cancel that one, because I swear I don't want a freaking BETA and RTC with Ms Ong. I got pretty agitated during the first hour and couldn't stop pacing around and moving.

I spent most of the time hiding under the tables pushed to the back of the class. I had only slept about 1 1/2 hours the night before, and some twinkie set the temperature to 17C as usual. So I curled up under the tables and rested while observing everyone else. Grace thought that the look of me curled up under the table like a cat looked cute so she took several pictures. I was too dazed to care.

For Drama Night I am acting as the heartless Man In Coat (a flasher, probably) and as Ball-Playing Girl 2. Heeheehee. I'd love to wear a coat! And I like throwing the ball back-and-forth to Gracey, who's Ball-Playing Girl 1 and Girl In Coat. So long as I don't hit Celeste and Pearlyn or accidentally throw the ball too hard!

JX's birthday party started at 4 since her mother was arriving at the Singapore Recreation Club then. So we spent the time until 3 at school reading in the library. Then, we changed in class. I brought my longsleeved striped shirt and my favourite black pants. JX was the only one wearing a skirt and Nancy didn't bring any clothes to change into.

We took 190 to Orchard MRT, where we boarded a train to City Hall. There were six of us; supposedly seven, but Jazlyn had to go for GB. Sad...would've been better if she was there too. We walked to the SRC, but had to cross two roads to do so. We had a little mixup since someone didn't press the button for the traffic light the first time round, and four of us didn't want to jaywalk (including me) so we had to wait extra.

The interior of the SRC looked so swanky I immediately felt a little intimidated. I had never been to such a place before apart from the hotels, which I know always tries to look swanky. I felt so out of place with whatever I was wearing.

I expected the bowling alley to be like the one at Orchid Country Club where I usually go to, but the one at SRC was more private and only had eight or ten lanes. I panicked because I was afraid anyone there could see my mistakes. But as it turns out we were the only ones there most of the time. Good thing too, we made such a racket.

I felt a bit rusty with bowling, but I followed Ahmad's four-step instructions and I did pretty well. I used a 7-pound ball. Grace had a "cursed" ball, as we termed it, since it kept rolling into the gutters or diverting off-course at the very last second. I kinda taught Sze Min the four-step thing, but as Nancy kept saying she needed to be more aggressive in bowling the ball.

Every time I bowled the ball and it went to the extreme right or left to the gutter, I kept waving my hands in the opposite direction the ball was heading for and saying, "Go left/right, go left/right!". I can hear the people behind me laughing. =.=;;;

Pearlyn seemed to be the best out of all of us. She got some strikes, but she credited it all to the orange bowling ball she used. It was an 8-pounder, and I tried using it but it ended up in the gutter. >< Maybe it's just not my luck. It's Pearlyn's. ^^

The first game Nancy beat me by 3 points. (THREE POINTS ARGH!) So I was determined to beat her the next game. Heheheh. (This is what I mean when I said I killed her) I beat her by 13 points! Whoohoo! I got two spares too in the whole of the two games.

By the third game almost everyone was tired. So we only played in one lane with four turns. A turn named Piangi (after JX's soft toy bear) was reserved for people trying out bowling with their left hands. I ended up being really lucky and knocking down 6 pins with my left. Celeste knocked down 3, which she didn't even know she did.

After we finished the last game we went for dinner, where JX's mom had already ordered the food and reserved a table. I ate cheese and egg sandwiches, and beancurd with the peanut sauce. I felt kinda happy then, because...well, because. And guilty too, because I have that sort of guilty complex that's quite easily triggered. Like in netball, if my team loses, I immediately blame it on the fact that I did not do enough for my team. Here, it's cos I'm in this swanky place eating food I'm not paying for. ><

The cake came out next, tiramisu. I ate about half of my slice before Grace mentioned that tiramisu she baked had liquor in it. I panicked and stopped eating. JX was trying to reassure me that it was just flavoured, but since in Islam if you're wary about eating it, don't eat it. ARGH. Sze Min later said on her blog that it doesn't have liquor, but I've looked up recipes on the net and most of them do.

Went home after eating a whole load of things. JX gave Pearlyn and Celeste a lift home, Sze Min and Grace went home with their parents, and Nancy and I took the trains back, but opposite directions. By the time we reached the platform, the East-West train had pulled in, and the North-South arrived seconds after. At home I fell asleep for twelve hours. X)

Today, I so wanted to go to the Nanowrimo kick-off event, but I couldn't go since I had to visit my cousin's house. Unluckily too, that the red tide just came in. Argh. Probably will spoil my mood for the wedding tomorrow, or not! I won't let it, I say, I won't!

At my cousin's house I just played with my cousins. I handled the air-powered rocket like a bazooka. ^^ I hit my cousin twice with it, one straight in the face and another at the temple. Then we played sparklers downstairs as usual.

Forgot to blog about my scores. They're very sucky, especially Physics. Nearly failed. ><
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English Paper 1: 27/40
English Paper 2: 29/30

Malay Paper 1: 40/60
Malay Paper 2: 61/90

History: 14/20

Literature: 17/25

Geography: 16.5/25

Mathematics: 34/45

Physics: 17/30

Chinese: 39.5/93

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I love my Malay PT though! My short story that I wrote for it was pretty well-graded, and Cikgu wants me to edit it a little and send it to her so that she can proof-read it and send it to Berita Harian for their Obor section. Wow!

Can't wait for tomorrow! It's Mandi's and Shiing's wedding! I still have no idea for a costume, but I'll find one! I'm going to Lisa's house around 12.30 or so to prepare, and Lisa said Joni's going there too. Have to arrive at Flo's around 2.30 to pass Mar her skirt.

10/28/2006 07:36:00 PM

Wednesday, October 25, 2006

306th post...

Selamat Hari Raya, kalau tak puasa dosa!

My theme for 2006 is green, so I was decked out in a green kebaya with a green bag and green heels. Wahahaha watermelon! LOL!

I went to my maternal grandmother's house first in Yishun. My cousins from Johor had already arrived and their son was tapping away at the keyboard inside my aunt's room. As usual, me and my sisters headed into the playroom while my brother joined his cousin on the computer. We whiled our time away eating chocolates and simply talking or playing with the numerous toys our kid cousin had in his playroom. At this house, it's more boring because...there's less cousins, and they keep to themselves mostly.

At five, me and my sisters went to the minimart downstairs to get some snacks to eat. My sister got a tube of Frutips while we shared a bag of preserved prunes. Or plums, I can't tell which. As we started back to our grandma's house, we stopped at those $1 machines with the assorted goodies inside. Beside it was a cheaper 20c version churning out rings.

We were quite pleased with the initial outcome, so each of us put in at least 40c into the machine and got about 2 rings each. Almost all our first tries got us a ring in a colour matching our Hari Raya outfits.

We left at around six or seven when the last group of cousins had arrived at the house. They're always the last ones, and us almost the first.

We visited our paternal grandmother's house after that, back in Sembawang. This bunch of cousins are a more excitable bunch. Although there are roughly two cliques, one is the older group of people and one is the younger group of people, although my 15-year-old sister rather prefers to hang out with the second group because she's pretty fun-loving at heart.

We played handball with a cousin's stress ball (now that's a way to keep stress down!). Initially at the seventh floor where our grandma's house was, but after several close shaves and finally the ball went down to the first floor, we ended up moving to the playground and attempting to play handball in the dark with the equally dark-coloured ball. I switched my heels for more favourable green flats. (What did you expect, red flats?)

Sadly, our time there had to end so we went home. TT_TT I wanted to buy Slurpee but it was too late at night. Still, bathing in hot water's a treat. But I can buy Slurpee tomorrow! And play Audisea! WHOO! However on Thursday, we're getting our results back. =.=;;

10/25/2006 12:26:00 AM

Monday, October 23, 2006

305th post...

Man, I haven't posted since last week and I have quite a lot to blog about.

Friday

Me, Jaz, Liz, Nana and TG went to watch Death Note. Too bad I couldn't eat cos I was still fasting (oh, Nana, you) but no matter! I still enjoyed the movie anyways. I was pretty surprised when I saw (or more specifically, heard) the actor for L. I always imagined L to have a higher voice than that (don't ask me why, I just do). So I got quite a shock.

But it's pretty cute the way he sits and eats all that junk food. And the parts where Raito planned the deaths of Naomi Misora and his girlfriend Shiori was quite a bit of genius too. I didn't really expect him to kill off his girlfriend for his own personal gains, which was to join the Kira investigation team. I can't wait for the second part! Though I don't want to see L die... TT_TT

Later we went to Kinokuniya cos Jaz wanted to find the latest issue of Lala, but it wasn't there. So we went to Art Friend, where the four others found a notebook replica (close enough) of the Death Note, so they all bought it. I decided to be L instead. xP

Liz suggested taking Neoprints at Far East, so we went there. But the four others wanted to jaywalk across the road to get there. Me being me, took a long winding route underground. When I finally reached there (I forgot where the Neoprint shop in Far East was), Jaz, Liz and TG had gone into Comics Connection.

We took two sets of Neoprints there. I especially liked the pictures when the other three (Liz, Jaz and Nana) posed as L, and when I posed as L while the others got their "Death Notes" out. I missed out on the first picture because I didn't hear Jaz suggest the L pose. Both pictures look really cute!

After they ate at Burger King, we all finally went back home.

Saturday, Sunday and Monday

Most of this time was spent trying to clean up the house and my room. We're about halfway done by now. Mostly people pay attention to the appearance of the living room and the dining room, so I don't think we need be too fussed about what happens inside. And tomorrow no one's coming to our house anyway. So I guess all that's left to be fixed is my shelf.

I've read the Death Note manga until chapter 25 so far, and I suppose I can only continue on Wednesday or so. Feeh.

Can't wait to see my cousins tomorrow. And I'll be tottering on my heels like an old lady.

10/23/2006 10:59:00 PM

Thursday, October 19, 2006

It was a celebration. They were nearby, shooting the fireworks into the air. Blue, yellow, red, orange. There was a whole host of colours.

Funnily enough shells and bombs were firing nearby too. But I knew they were just for show: they were part of the celebration. I stepped towards them, interested to know how they fired the shells and bombs.

The shells were loaded into these two holes in a wall, and a woman nearby operated a switch that when pressed, would shoot the shells forward at a great speed. I took great care not to get in the way. The woman continued reloading the shells and flicking the switch. I just stood nearby and watched, enthralled.

The woman reloaded the shells again and flicked the switch. However, this time, the shells didn't shoot out of the holes at high speed. The woman kept flicking the switch on and off, on and off, on and off. I suddenly felt panicky, like something wasn't right. I started to scramble over the shell pile next to her and get to a building a while away where I thought it would be safe.

I got over the pile and quickly ran for the building, just as the sky darkened. The sky. Darkened. But something still stuck to the front of my mind, something telling me that dire trouble was around the corner. I walked over to a pavilion in the building where I met with my siblings and friends. I felt safer here, but the panicky feeling still remained.

The pavilion had three walls: one had a row of clear windows, another had bookshelves leaning on it and another was blank. On the floor were cushions and chairs. I seated myself on the floor and looked out the window to see the fireworks, still shooting up towards the darkened sky.

The fireworks were no longer the sparkly showers they were before; now, as they exploded, the once-shimmery particles turned dull and simply dropped to the ground like rain. By then I knew something was extremely wrong.

The bombs flying around in the air were emitting smoke and some were on fire. I continued staring at the sight, transfixed. The backdrop added to the eerieness of the situation: the two steel towers behind resembled the 9/11 Twin Towers. My heart almost stopped when I realised it.

By now, more and more people had joined us at the pavilion. It was now completely sealed as the last wall I had never noticed came down. All of us were watching the towers and the scene surrounding it. Some of the flaming bombs exploded in mid-air; I could feel myself shaking as they exploded.

Suddenly, I had this thought. The towers resembled the 9/11 Twin Towers, if a plane happened to pass overhead this would be a coincidence, wouldn't it? And at that same moment, I saw a plane pass far overhead. It seemed fine. But...

The others in the pavilion continued to talk to each other. Some even laughing. I recall my eldest sister to my left, my second sister to my right, a friend on her right, and that friend's cousin in front of me. I recall them joking to each other. As I looked around, it seemed as if I was the only one now who was attentively looking out the window.

That was when I saw it. A massive shadow blacking out most of the towers, in what appeared to me to be a plane wing. I recall wondering where it would land, hoping furiously it wouldn't land on the pavilion, and if it did, what would I do?

I couldn't think about it much; I saw the wing land with an almighty crash just beside the pavilion in view of the window. I felt a strong rush of air rip the pavilion walls apart. I quickly grabbed my friend's cousin backwards towards me, but the force of the crash tugged her out of my hands and she landed just sideways of me.

When some of the dust settled, I turned to my left and right. My sisters had several cuts on their arms and faces. The windows were black so I could not see what was happening outside. I glanced around the room; no one seemed to be moving, no one seemed to be awake, except me.

I quickly turned to my left where my eldest sister lay. I was hoping and hoping hard in my heart that everyone would survive. I didn't want to see them die. I was trapped from the lower body downwards by the tangle of bodies that lay on the floor.

I heard my sisters stir beside me. My friend had propped herself up by her arm. She too had some minor cuts and bruises on her face. Her cousin beside her also appeared to be aware of her surroundings. I felt relieved no one died. Yet.

Labels: dream

10/19/2006 08:55:00 PM

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

go ma wuh yo da eul deus geu dae yael pae ees ki ae
duh neun nae il ee na doo ryop ji ahn jyo
sarang te mae him deen gun ee byul te mae ah pen gun
young hwah sohk ae mahn ee suht eu myun hae
uhn jae na nan mid uht jyo nae bahn jyo geu dae la go
nuh moo na ik sook hae suh neul bul ahn haet uht dun na reul
nuh moo na haeng bok hae suh mahn ee ool uht dun na reul
mal ups ee ah nah joo uht jyo ee jae neun ah nah jwuh
bo yuh yo geu dae mahm ahl ah bo ki mahn hae do
sarang hae sarang hae yo mal ro neun da moht hal mahn gu
ahl ah yo geu dae mahm ah moo mal do ahn hae do
sarang hae sarang hae yo noon moor eul ee kil mahn gu sarang hae yo

ee moor jo chah ee bol yo hon ja ga ah ni ki ae
duh neun uh doom do na moo sop ji ahn jyo
seu chyuh ga neun yun i neun ga seum shi rin nyae ki neun
soh sul sohk ae mahn ee suht eu myun hae
uhn jae na nan mid uht jyo nae bahn jyo geu dae la go
nuh moo na ik sook hae suh neul bul ahn haet uht dun na reul
nuh moo na haeng bok hae suh mahn ee ool uht dun na reul
mal ups ee ah nah joo uht jyo ee jae neun ah nah jwuh
bo yuh yo geu dae mahm ahl ah bo ki mahn hae do
sarang hae sarang hae yo mal ro neun da moht hal mahn gu
ahl ah yo geu dae mahm ah moo mal do ahn hae do
sarang hae sarang hae yo noon moor eul ee kil mahn gu sarang hae yo
bo yuh yo geu dae mahm ahl ah bo ki mahn hae do
sarang hae sarang hae yo mal ro neun da moht hal mahn ki
ahl ah yo geu dae mahm ah moo mal do ahn hae do
sarang hae sarang hae yo noon moor eul ee kil mahn gu sarang hae yo
bo yuh yo geu dae mahm ahl ah bo ki mahn hae do
sarang hae sarang hae yo mal ro neun da moht hal mahn ki
ahl ah yo geu dae mahm ah moo mal do ahn hae do
sarang hae sarang hae yo noon moor eul ee kil mahn gu sarang hae yo

-Loving You by Lee So Eun

10/17/2006 10:31:00 PM

It's nothing I want to feel, really.

To you, does it look like I have friends? Maybe. But to me, I don't feel so. Or I'm just fickle, oh, I don't know. It may be true that further into the year I got to know others better, but it seems that I did so at the price of losing others.

In a group, I can associate with others pretty well, but when you leave me alone with another I don't know what to say. I don't know them well enough to start a smooth conversation. I'll soon lapse into silence and it makes me uncomfortable.

What is the meaning of friends, anyway? Is it just someone you know? Or someone you know for a while and understand their personality? Or is it someone who already knows how to read your mind?

Friend n.
1. A person whom one knows, likes and trusts
2. A person whom one knows; an acquaintance

Not much help, is it? "Knows"? What do I know? Their name? Their birthday, likes, dislikes? Their innermost thoughts?

But I trust the whole class, and I love them too. Does that make them my friends, even though I don't really know them? I just know them as a whole 112 who made my life exciting.
Or maybe, it's just the whole stress of the exams that are getting me all...

Anyway, it was English exam yesterday and Malay exam today. The English compre was surprisingly easier than the mock ones Mrs Loh gave us, and the composition was *squee*. I chose the options for question no. 4: Torn ten-dollar bill, an orphanage and a neighbour.

The plot was that this orphan kid wanted to run away to find her mother, and she had an escape plan set. All she needed was ten dollars for the bus fare. Suddenly she found a torn ten-dollar bill on the ground. So she was able to run away with the help of her neighbour who bought the tickets for her.

I stayed back with Maryam and Nancy, supposedly to study Chinese but I was only able to concentrate for about half-an-hour before things went haywire. Maryam and Nancy both are high on drugs. They were screaming and fighting each other over something (I forgot what). Luckily there weren't any other people around.

Today the Malay composition sucked. The letterwriting was OK, but I couldn't understand the two topics for the second part. So I asked Cikgu who told me that "diari maya" meant blog. Since that was the only one I knew I had to do it.

In it, there's a girl who always blogs. She replies to a message someone left on her tagboard. Over time, both of them exchange tagboard messages until they agree to meet. Turns out "MaxHeart04" is her best friend, who's a guy, and who doesn't like the girl's habit of blogging even though he blogs himself.

Sarah and Liyana both mistook the meaning of the questions. Liyana thought "diari maya" was that normal kind of book diary, and Sarah thought "Puteri Misali" was a name. Instead it was some kind of religious thing I think.

The Malay paper two was pretty easy. But the first compre got me kinda mad. There's a girl whose father was marrying a second wife because the first wife didn't want to give birth anymore (or couldn't) but the father wanted a lot of kids. The first wife gave him permission to because she wanted her husband to be happy. The girl got so mad she wanted some kind of revenge. So when the second wife was pregnant the girl deliberately knocked into her while she was going down the stairs and caused her to miscarry.

I was skimming the passage so I thought that the second wife fell, OK, fine. But when I reread it and found out that the girl caused it, I was pretty stunned and couldn't do anything for like, half-a-minute. Grr. Evil twit. Though I too would be mad if my dad said he wanted to remarry. Eeeh.

10/17/2006 08:14:00 PM

Saturday, October 14, 2006

301st post...

Finally, I have dared to post after a long while. I was afraid I wouldn't be able to see my first posts anymore, but I added that "Past Memories" thing so that I'd be able to read them again.

My keyboard seems a little sluggish. Or it's just my typing. It's a bit early in the morning (in my terms) so I suppose I'm a bit off.

Anyway, next week is EOY week. First exams English, nothing much to study for except summary-writing and comprehension. I'm worried about my History, Literature, Chinese and Maths, I suppose. But that doesn't mean I'm complacent about the rest of my subjects.

10 more days to the end of Ramadhan, aka Hari Raya Puasa. It's funny how fast time flies. At the start of the month, you think the prospect of fasting 30 days seems bleak. And suddenly, it's like 20 days came and went doing nothing. I expect next week it'll zoom by faster with the EOYs and all.

I finally chose my enrichment program for the post-exam activity. Contrary to what everyone is telling me to take, I took Multiple Intelligence and Learning Styles instead of STAMP - Stress, Time and Anger Management.

I was pretty emo yesterday, wondering what really is me. Sometimes I'm this quiet, brooding (you say it's stoning) person, and other times I'm this laughing loon. I don't know which is me. Both? I can't tell.

But Maryam is telling me to not be sad during these times. Cos it'll affect my grades. She's right. I'd better...ah...be happy? I dunno. Or just control my emotions better.

Joy! After next week we have nothing to do! And I can watch Death Note with Jazlyn.

I can't wait for the wedding. xP

10/14/2006 11:13:00 AM

Saturday, October 07, 2006

HAPPY 300TH POST!

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Print it out and cut it into slices, if you wish.

Never thought I'd finally reach 300.

OK, maybe I've given it some thought.

Anyway, today I went out with Mama, Suha and Muna to Causeway Point to look for shoes and browse the bazaar. We went to Charles and Keith first because that's where we got our shoes last year. There wasn't any shoe that I liked there, because my criteria for this year was as follows:

1) Has to be heels that are not too high (since I'm inexperienced)
2) Must be either dark green, green or black
3) Has to have support (aka ankle straps)

We didn't check out Bata because Muna told us stuff there were expensive. We tried Metro, but the prices were pretty steep for the nice ones. Then Muna remembered that Ice Lemon Tee also sold shoes, so we decided to go there.

The shoes there were really pretty, and affordable too. I saw this denim one with frills that I liked, but on my feet they died. The salesgirl showed us some shoes that were going for 2 for $10.95. I chose this green pair with ribbons, and a black one with three black roses at the front. Muna didn't find any shoe she liked, and Suha's were out of size.

HAHAHA! I finally got my shoesies!

At the bazaar we walked a lot. >< We bought some stuff there too, like chocolates that looked like the Guylian brand, but were damn cheaper (50c!). There, when my mom was queuing for the vadeh at this stall (said to be good, there was a long queue), this well-dressed woman and a camera crew popped up from nowhere to film at that stall. My siblings told me that she was the female winner of Anugerah Skrin.

I don't know, I don't watch the show.

At home, I tried on the black shoes with the skirt I'm intending to wear to the wedding, and whoa, do they look nice. I think a lot of people at the wedding will be shocked to see me, because I hardly wear what I'm gonna wear. Heels, a skirt...it goes against my principles!

But there's no way I'm applying makeup!

Deb once mentioned that my hair was too dry on Friday, and told me I should moisturise or condition it. I took part of her advice; I went to change my shampoo to one that would suit my hair. I have yet to see if it works though...

This is my 300th post, after this I can no longer see all my posts in the blogger archives...

10/07/2006 07:53:00 PM

Sunday, October 01, 2006

299th post...

I am worth $1,351,510 on HumanForSale.com

Nowai!!!!11!!!1 I am worth more than that! So there!

Back to school. Was hoping Nancy forgot the uh, arm-wrestling thing, but apparently she remembered. I kept shrieking it didn't count. I tried arm-wrestling with Maryam and Sarah but I lost both times. Imagine how my arm would be like at the grip of Nancy. I er, escaped for today but I might still have to do it or hop around the room five times singing "From High Olympus" tomorrow.

Turns out the chocolates Mrs Deborah Tan gave the whole school, including the teachers, did not come from the school fund nor was it donated, according to the teachers she bought the chocolates with her own money. Total cost amounting to somewhere near $20,000.

Sad she won't be our principal next year though, I heard. I hope the new principal is as nice as her, or even better. Siigh...

For Chinese today I was very agitated for no apparent reason. I kept doodling, scribbling, drawing. Clenching and unclenching my hand, tapping impatiently on the table, almost crying in frustration! I kept doodling stick figures decapitated or half-eaten, crawling their way to the other end of the page. Sarah was kinda alarmed at my behaviour.

She suggested getting a stress ball to work it off, but I think I'll do with a scrunched up piece of paper or a sponge.

I'm gonna see which of Muna's or Suha's black skirts fit me better.

I should've arm-wrestled then. Might've let off some of my steam, or better yet, all of it.

No homework tonight! SLACK!

I can't puasa now till...usually 5 days later, but since my body's a bit off nutrients now during the fasting month it might take the expected 7. Oh wells.

Will blog later when I have finally found something nice to blog about.

10/01/2006 09:57:00 PM